Yeah...sorry guys, I don't want to bother you but I feel so pretty shitty right now and I just need to write it ALL down...

No, I'm NOT mentally unstable and don't feel sick because of my family, school, whatsoever...(wow, not this time!) It's...more my health.

I've already talked to some of my friends here on DA about it... (thanks guys, you really understand me...)

So yeah, let's see...I've lost my voice one week ago? I can't speak, neither making a stupid sound nor even a full sentence! My throat burns like hell and everything the doctors could give me were tablets, tablets and even MORE. F#CKING. TABLETS! These pills did me no good... Goddamn, am I an end depot for tablets, or what? DX<

But the best is yet to come...hooray, I've a friggin' laringitis but not only that, my whole pharynx (throat) is infected and sore. Today the ENT physician told me I've sore vocal chords and a fester on my trachea. What a §^/#, I thought I'm in the bloom of youth!

After I left the ENT, I got deaf on my left ear. That's not the first time this happenes and so I thought, "Oh my, not again..." But then it became worse and at the end there was such a tremendous pain in my ear and at the left side of my brain that I began to cry!
I usually don't cry, but that was just too much for me! So my mom took me to the doc again but that idiot didn't take me serious! OMG what do I have to do, should I've vomited on his friggin' carpet of what?!

So yeah, I got a middle ear inflammation too. God, why do you hate me?
Then...I was at home...cried my eyes out and wanted to sleep...but NO, the damn painkillers didn't help at all! My mom called the doc again and he told us it takes 2 F#CKING HOURS TIL IT WORKS!! 2 hours!! I cried so much because of the pain in my brain, my left ear, my throath, I couldn't even cough anymore, it hurt too much...yes, at the end I was lying on the kitchen floor and tried to sleep there because my mom said I need to distract myself from the pain...in that moment I just wanted to die...

At the end, I didn't have any tears left...yeah. And I still have to go to school, horray.

Oh, right now there's some pus running out of my ear. Looks like blood, if you ask me...


Sorry for that, I hope you guys didn't read that all...TT___TT I didn't want to bother you all but it would be a lie if I say I feel alright...


EDIT: OMG THIS JOURNAL SKIN IS SO FRIGGIN' CUTE....Q________Q