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When have I felt the last time that bad...

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 10, 2009, 12:17 PM



Yeah...sorry guys, I don't want to bother you but I feel so pretty shitty right now and I just need to write it ALL down...:cries:

No, I'm NOT mentally unstable and don't feel sick because of my family, school, whatsoever...(wow, not this time!) It's...more my health.

I've already talked to some of my friends here on DA about it... (thanks guys, you really understand me...:tears:)

So yeah, let's see...I've lost my voice one week ago? I can't speak, neither making a stupid sound nor even a full sentence! My throat burns like hell and everything the doctors could give me were tablets, tablets and even MORE. F#CKING. TABLETS! These pills did me no good... Goddamn, am I an end depot for tablets, or what? DX<

But the best is yet to come...hooray, I've a friggin' laringitis but not only that, my whole pharynx (throat) is infected and sore. Today the ENT physician told me I've sore vocal chords and a fester on my trachea. What a §^/#, I thought I'm in the bloom of youth! :shakefist:

After I left the ENT, I got deaf on my left ear. That's not the first time this happenes and so I thought, "Oh my, not again..." But then it became worse and at the end there was such a tremendous pain in my ear and at the left side of my brain that I began to cry!
I usually don't cry, but that was just too much for me! So my mom took me to the doc again but that idiot didn't take me serious! OMG what do I have to do, should I've vomited on his friggin' carpet of what?!

So yeah, I got a middle ear inflammation too. God, why do you hate me?
Then...I was at home...cried my eyes out and wanted to sleep...but NO, the damn painkillers didn't help at all! My mom called the doc again and he told us it takes 2 F#CKING HOURS TIL IT WORKS!! 2 hours!! I cried so much because of the pain in my brain, my left ear, my throath, I couldn't even cough anymore, it hurt too much...yes, at the end I was lying on the kitchen floor and tried to sleep there because my mom said I need to distract myself from the pain...in that moment I just wanted to die...:cries:

At the end, I didn't have any tears left...yeah. And I still have to go to school, horray. :la:

Oh, right now there's some pus running out of my ear. Looks like blood, if you ask me...


Sorry for that, I hope you guys didn't read that all...TT___TT I didn't want to bother you all but it would be a lie if I say I feel alright...:cries:


EDIT: OMG THIS JOURNAL SKIN IS SO FRIGGIN' CUTE....Q________Q :heart:

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  • Mood: Sickened
  • Listening to: I'm deaf, goddamn!!
  • Reading: The golden Compass
  • Watching: The Big Lebowski
  • Playing: I wanna play Metal Gear...
  • Eating: Nothing...
  • Drinking: Blood orange tea

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HEY YOU!! READ THIS IF YOU DON'T WANNA PISS ME OFF!

:bulletwhite: Yeah, that's me. Quite a strange girl. O_o

Well...I'm normally very nice and polite but I've my own special needs. :XD: (Who hasn't them? >_< )

:star: Things which I really like:

:bulletblue: Music
:bulletblue: Nine Inch Nails and The Birthday Massacre
:bulletblue: Super Mario (and other Nintendo stuff)
:bulletblue: Metal Gear Solid
:bulletblue: Drawing...what else?
:bulletblue: Yaoi...c'mon, I'm very tolerant xD
:bulletblue: Cartoon style
:bulletblue: Animes like...Higurashi and Elfen Lied.
:bulletblue: Gory, bloody and creepy art ...believe it or not. xD
:bulletblue: Slash...(in yaoi-form. x'D)
:bulletblue: People, who have their own drawing styles

:star: Things, where I think I could rip off my head:

:bulletred: Art thieves
:bulletred: Making stupid questions :bucktooth:
:bulletred: People randomly popping on my page here and writing "OMFG, I LUUUUV YOUR ART DO YOU MAKE REQUESTS?????????" I hate that...
:bulletred: I really hate it when someone forces me to comment/fav something! :pissedoff: I comment on free will, got it?
:bulletred: Mean critique
:bulletred: Boozing :X
:bulletred: I f#ckin' HATE stupid comments. If you don't have anything meaningful to say about my pics then JUST SHUT YER MOUTH. :|
:bulletred: You can't buy or ask for my friendship. Hello? Who am I? Jesus?! Goddamn...


:bulletgreen: I speak...huh, (nearly) 3 languages. xD German, English and a little bit Italian.


:earth: Oh btw, I'm from Austria. :3 Servas, Leidln! :icononionxdplz:

:iconccmusic1::iconccmusic2::iconccmusic3:

In the back...
Of the side...
And far away...
Is a place...
Where I hide...
Where I stay...
Tried to say...
Tried to ask...
I needed to...
All alone...
By myself...
Where were you?

How could I...
Ever think...
It's funny how...
Everything they swore...
It wouldn't change...
Is different now...
Just like YOU...
Would always say...
"We'll make it through"...
Then my head...
Fell apart...
And where were you?

Nine Inch Nails ~ Somewhat Damaged

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Austria
  • Interests: Games, Mythology, Art, History, Books, Music, Movies...
  • Favourite movie: Lord of the Rings, The Mummy, Harry Potter, The Big Lebowski,...
  • Favourite band or musician: Nine Inch Nails, The Birthday Massacre, Evanescence, Within Temptation, Rammstein
  • Favourite genre of music: Industrial, Synth, Rock, Gothic, Pop and Instrumental themes
  • Favourite poet or writer: J.R.R. Tolkien, J.K. Rowling and Jenny-May Nuyen
  • Favourite style of art: Cartoons and Mangas
  • MP3 player of choice: Sandisc Sansa Fuze
  • Shell of choice: A blue...koopa shell??
  • Wallpaper of choice: Something gory...<3
  • Skin of choice: Wtf..?
  • Favourite game: Super Mario games, Metal Gear Solid games, Banjo-Kazooie & Banjo-Tooie, Oblivion
  • Favourite gaming platform: SNES, Nintendo 64, Playstadion 2, Nintendo DS and Wii
  • Favourite cartoon character: Mario Bros., Mr. L, Zim, Dib, Gir, Solid Snake, Otacon, R. Ocelot, Big Boss, P. Layton, Anthony...
  • Personal Quote: "...shit." D:
  • Tools of the Trade: Colour pencils and GIMP

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:iconsevlen:
are you really deaf!? =(

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Thank you for faving!!!

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Those guys are dorks.
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~565mae10 made my icon. =D Pretty, isn't it?
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Holia, Mees Cora!
I finally got off my lazy butt and finished up my half of teh Art Challenge.
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Those guys are dorks.
Yes, but they're my dorks. :ohmygod:
~565mae10 made my icon. =D Pretty, isn't it?
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...8D !! Yay! xD

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Good evening. :XD:

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It won't give up, it wants me dead GodDaMn ThIs NoIsE iNsIdE mY hEaD...
:iconcora-dilcoroc:
Oh, nothing special...I'm kinda nervous because tomorrow I've a job interview in a hotel...:faint: x__X

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It won't give up, it wants me dead GodDaMn ThIs NoIsE iNsIdE mY hEaD...
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one more week and school is out!!! :iconbadassplz:

are you feeling better?

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